The Degenerate Confessions of a Secret Diary

so I ended up going out for a drink with this girl I met. we first went to a bar in the lower east side. that one drink turned into three. next we were at another bar making out. it was really nice to have a girl so into me. does wonders for the ego.

after our fifth beer, I asked her if she wanted to crash at my place since i lived nearby. she said yes and off we were to making out on my couch and rolling into my bed.

we started out fondling each others privates and moved on to the real deal. but midway through, she stopped me cause she felt like it was “wrong” of us to be doing this on the first date. I of course grudgingly stopped and told her that I understood. we then fell asleep in each others arms.

the next morning or should I say noon, we woke up and stayed in bed. we talked about the night before and honestly seeing her in the daylight half naked on my bed. made me want to finish what we started the night before. this time she was more guilt free about it and all the clothes came off. she came first and after a while of me trying to savor the experience and everything about her, I finished too.

while I walked her to the train she told me she felt like everyone around her all knew what she had done last night. it was interesting to see a girl doing the “walk of shame”. although, I was walking with her so I don’t see what was wrong with it really. as a guy I always feel proud of myself and wished everyone knew what I had done.

so she went home to shower change and eat something. I met up with my good buddy for a late lunch. yes, we talked about my fun night and afternoon delight. he asked me a ton of questions gleefully. he’s been in a long term relationship for six years and loved hearing about my single life exploits.

after lunch I went home to shower and change also. I still had her scent all over me which I didn’t mind. surprisingly we decided to meet up again later that night at my place again to watch movies on couch together.

it was saturday and sunday was valentine’s day. I wasn’t sure yet how serious I was about this girl yet, but I knew I would like to date her for a bit to see where it goes. so I decided to buy her a rose. it was only two bucks but I knew it would be worth some big gold points.

so I gave her instructions on getting back to my place but she was new in town and ended up getting lost. I definitely felt like she lost points with me for not being able to follow simple instructions.

she finally gets to my place, i give her the rose and we watched movies and order delivery from a local diner. it turns out the that she’s kind if a movie snob and didn’t like a lot of movies. she hated and made fun of stardust which I think is a decent film. it was kind of annoying.

finally we just decide to go to bed since I told her she could sleep over again. we definitely kept each other up again that night and slept in on Sunday. we stayed in bed again and did it two more times in the afternoon.

she eventually left late that afternoon cause I was going to meet my family for dinner that night. she was still wondering if we would’ve kept talking to each other if she hadn’t had drinks and opened up. cause she said she is normally conservative. she worried she may have done too much too fast. I don’t know. maybe. but regretting it and over analyzing it isn’t going to make it better. at this point I was thinking we should just go with the flow and see where it takes us. so errr… happy valentine’s day?